MY FIBROIDS STORY

My doctor prescribed birth control pills to regulate the hormones. While other women haven't had issues with the pill, it hasn't been my cup of tea. It's frustrating to think that most doctors' solution to this issue is birth control without telling us the possible side effects.

THANK YOU NOTE.

That won't be easier .I'm rather a very weak woman that is constantly trying to exist. Barely surviving . At this point in my life,I always wonder what it would be like to be pain free.I'm in a constant battle with my own body every other time. when I'm not enduring extreme abdominal and lower back pain that makes me feel like I'm in labor,I am struggling with an extremely heavy menestrual flow. When I'm not battling migraines or clustered pain throughout my body not forgetting the forever bloating ,I'm dealing with so much pelvic pressure and even though that comes with a prize that is the urge to frequently use the bathroom,other times i can't get my body to pass whatever call that was. It's frustrating .

Cry Baby. You’re Only Human

Featured

You may be feeling emotional today. But guess what? You're allowed to. You're only normal. You're only human. Sometimes we are happy, sometimes sad and other times exhilarated. Some people cry while reading a sad book, watching sad or romantic movies. Others cry at funerals and others at weddings. And for certain people, the mere hint of anything that arouses emotions can cause tears to flow.Emotions are a normal process of being human and everyone processes theirs differently.

THE PAIN?… “IT’S ALL IN YOUR HEAD” THEY Said. .. part 1

Featured

Among the many frustrating features of being a CYSTER is the abnormal and extremely embarrassing hair growth in places you wouldn't expect to grow hair. This kills the little self esteem you have.Apparently, only old folks are allowed to say they're in pain out loud. He insisted that it was all in my head and the pain was UNREAL.

“BUT YOU DON’T LOOK SICK…”

Featured

In other words, I'm just going to take it as a compliment because I look fine to you. Because I am a good actress for playing the fine role so well.The more awareness there is for illnesses like multiple sclerosis, Crohn’s disease, fibromyalgia, PCOS etc., the less judgment there will be for us living with these invisible illnesses.

I CANCELED TODAY. LET’S TRY AGAIN TOMORROW _LIVING WITH CHRONIC PAIN

Featured

living with Chronic Pain every day is an adventure. It feels more like a roller-coaster. Sometimes it's up, other times it's down here _mostly down for me.No, the pain meds don't always help. Pain is my constant companion even when I'm on medication. I just try to fake smile to hide my desperation because I know you don't care anyway.

WHEN I SAY “I AM FINE” …

Featured

I don't feel well but explaining it doesn't lessen my pain sweetheart. I will still feel every bit of it. I'll still cry silently. And you will still doubt my illness and worse dismiss it like everyone else. So I will just say, I am fine.

No… Not Today

Featured

I was only in my early twenties but honestly, I felt like an old lady. I was miserable in all fronts. It was Mid-way through a bout of trying to get chores done. I had been ignoring the on and off ache at the base of my spine and kept passing it off as just PMS - pre-menstrual syndrome. But then suddenly, out of the blues - Pouf : a feeling that something deep inside was going amiss ; not a click, not a snap, just a-hard-to explain signal that something's gone quite wrong. It was bad. I couldn't stand up and trying to kneel or sit would be ten times more painful. I was scared. Scared of paralysis. I thought I was going to die.

LETTER TO MY EXTENDED FAMILY – who think I’m just Lazy.

You all say I'm lazy. But what you don't know is, every new day brings a new set of issues for me. Some days I can't get out of bed. Not that I'm lazy, but because I'm Sick. Sick of Living. Do you know I have Chronic pain, Endometriosis, PCOS-that also causes my Insulin resistance and chronic fatigue syndrome? I want you to know that some days I am not excited about life. I just try to survive. I want to be Okay like your children. I want to see my dreams come true, I want to advance my education - I want to make Mama proud. But I need to Stop feeling Sick first.