You may be feeling emotional today. But guess what? You're allowed to. You're only normal. You're only human. Sometimes we are happy, sometimes sad and other times exhilarated. Some people cry while reading a sad book, watching sad or romantic movies. Others cry at funerals and others at weddings. And for certain people, the mere hint of anything that arouses emotions can cause tears to flow.Emotions are a normal process of being human and everyone processes theirs differently.
Don’t let them get to you. They just want to break you. Hang on in there. No one knows your story. They don’t even know half of what you’ve been through and they are so quick to judge you. You are beautiful. I know you are. I was too. I just didn’t get anyone to remind me that.
My intensified nightmares that couldn't let me sleep through the night horrified me, and I spiraled into my own suicidal depression. If my father didn't want anything to do with me, maybe I didn’t deserve to live. I felt completely worthless. And my self-loathing made me feel like a burden to this world. I wanted to die. Like now now. If only I'd just make a wish and wake up in Heaven. That would be so easy.
I don't feel well but explaining it doesn't lessen my pain sweetheart. I will still feel every bit of it. I'll still cry silently. And you will still doubt my illness and worse dismiss it like everyone else. So I will just say, I am fine.